"One Must Have Faith"
AVM painting in her studio. 2010.
I recently had a brief conversation with someone who said something to me, that made me pause.
She shared that her husband was an artist as well.
She indicated that it’s hard to be an artist. And then she said, “it takes faith.”
Her statement, made me pause; and I’ve been thinking about it ever since.
Pursuing art, or any deeply desired dream or goal, indeed, requires faith—a belief that the goal is obtainable.
I realize now, I have faith that my goal is achievable; however I don’t always have faith throughout the process of achieving my goals.
I find my emotions rise and fall according to circumstances, opposed to remaining lockstep in faith that all things are working in my favor.
I know all things are possible.
But I rarely use language (verbal or internal) conveying certainty of the achievement of my desired outcome, for me, specifically.
I don’t always think, speak, and act in full alignment with a single-pointed vision of my goal already achieved.
My faith was general—not specific.
My goals were blurry.
Not clear.
Not defined.
AVM presenting at Art Crawl 2017; Mother Dog Studios.
What would it look like if I created art, spoke proudly, walked tall, laughed and lived joyfully with certainty that the light and life I desire within, is here and near? Regardless, of how things may appear.
It is not until this deep contemplation, that I realized that I’ve been pursuing art without faith. I’ve been acting mainly with energy and effort.
But I have limits.
Maybe all this time, I’ve never really allowed myself to receive the truth, that this path, requires faith.
Faith in what may not be seen currently in the moment, yet trust that I’m not only on the right path and that I shall reach my destination, but most importantly, I am supported and guided throughout the entire process.
With this shift, maybe I can enjoy my life more.
Maybe I can enjoy the challenges more, because I know I am supported throughout the process.
My husband has a wonderful prayer, he often says to himself:
“God, remind me of what is already inside of me.”
I am my most joyous when I get to express myself fully—through art, writing, inspiration, creative ideas and expression. But also, through sharing my full personality, humor, and silliness with others.
Joy cannot be expressed when plagued with fear.
One must have faith.